Life Ain't All That Perfect You Know

Hey nigel

This is your girlfriend, the girl in the picture. She is the most beautiful person that you’ve ever met. She has the greatest heart and she is a very special person. I know she has her flaws and imperfections but everything about it is what makes her perfect for you. Both of you were made to be there for each other. You know that you’ll be there for her during her dark days and so will she for your downfalls. Love her with everything you have. No, love her with everything more than you are physically able to handle, because she deserves that. Not just to love her blindly, but to love her correctly. Remember that small bumps and big bumps are inevitable in a relationship , but it’s alright, it’s no biggie. Both of you will always know how to work it out together at the end of the day. Never stop telling her how much you love her, even when she gets annoyed by it. You know how hard you love. That’s all you need to know buddy. Oh and remember, always ketchup with the steak ;)

Cheers

I admit, it’s my fault. I changed. Can things go back to the way they were?

Things were so much simpler back then, when we were all still together. Well i guess this is growing up…

Fk my mind’s a mess at times i really fkin hate it

Sigh

You know how when you thought you could really trust somebody and all you wanted was the best for them. Yeah i guess not everyone appreciates or sees your doing. But it’s okay, not everyone you meet in your lifetime were meant to stick around. The good ones will forever be there. Some are just a small bump along the road to your happiness. So you just gotta tap on your breaks and step on your accelerator to move on happily. I wish you all the best bro, never thought it’ll end up this way.

Sigh

A clear night sky. Almost perfect clarity to stargaze, and they took the bike out to the beach. Rode out through the busy and wild night of parties and drinks to find themselves at a lonely and quiet beach. They sat on a small yellow towel with a cigarette in their mouth, smoking and talking about their life away. Questioning about the what ifs and the second chances in life. Waves crashing infront of them, almost reaching their toes. Stars filled the skies and wishes gifted from the shooting stars. Fireworks started lighting the night sky in the distance. Appreciating every single moment. Waves were getting closer and they tried to dig a border in the sand around them, but still ignoring every coming wave with more thoughts that fill their heads. And then came a big one. Their pants were wet, scrambling for their belongings, he lost his slipper, her phone was soaked. Struggling to find his slipper and then came a blessing from the skies with a heavy downpour. Ditching the search for his slippers, they rushed to the bike to hide their things dry. The music from their speaker started to amplify. As the rain got heavier, they stopped their moment of frenzy, and took a breathe to enjoy the moment they were in. Standing by the bike with their soaked hoodies and him only having one side of his slipper. They laughed and he started the bike and together they both rode the rain. The wind was cold and he was freezing, she kept him warm. His cap was back, she made it front. He kept in lane, her hands were in the air. Music from the speaker continued playing. It was perfect. Feeling the rain falling down on them and not caring how soaked they were. It was ecstasy. Navigating without a GPS, they found themselves at a Circle K, and ordered a warm hot dog and enjoyed it outside the store. Both in their own thoughts trying to intepret the magical moment with smiles on their faces. The rain stopped, but she wanted more, so she looked to the sky and asked for rain. And it rained. When they were done, just 2 people living their best life getting back on the bike and riding back into the champagne supernova. How many special people change?

Starting to feel more like shan zi than yu hao

It’s been awhile since I’ve posted something.

But there comes a point in time when I would just feel that I’m slowly losing the people around me.

The feeling is momentary.

I’m just afraid that the day comes where I do actually lose the people closest to me.

It’s alright, this feeling will fade when things are better again.

I hope it gets better…

Things doesn’t always go the way that we planned it. We disappoint the people that we love and care about. Sometimes i just feel that i can’t do anything right even after i’ve tried so hard. When will i be able to do something right?